This is the first part of a series I will be adding to this blog. Although, I will still write on "Ethan's Web" primarily for the purpose of explaining his healing process, I also feel it is important to expand on my healing process with "Jen's Web" since we truly are all connected. I wrote this new addition a little over a week ago on our way back from Pennsylvania in the car as my three kids sat in the back watching a DVD movie and my husband drove. Enjoy.
It has been just shy of 2 weeks since I left Michigan with my three children to drive to Pennsylvania. Today, I return back to Michigan a different woman with a different family. A family more united and healed than ever before. I am a woman more balanced and united than ever before. I have shed past unresolved inner conflicts and have released old energies that do not serve my higher purpose. I took time for myself on this trip to visit with old friends and understand deeply who they are and through them know who I am even better. I am not who I once was any more and I am even better than I imagined. This may seem selfish to say for some of you, but it is true. My life has become richer and fuller. My family’s life has become richer and fuller. The journey I took these past two weeks was a journey that was needed for our entire family. It was filled with understanding, seeing, and believing in the person that I already am and believed that I could always become. I know now what our family is meant for and what I am meant to do and to become and to be all that I am in this moment and forever more. I am not that which I thought I was and knowing this now has released me into a higher dimension and a higher reality. There are many realities that I could take on and I am consciously choosing which reality I would like our family to become. I must be careful though not to become obsessed with this new form of consciousness and worry that every thought will create a reality of one that I may not want. I do not have complete control and I must follow spirit but I can project thoughts that are consciously aware that we are allowed and deserve the qualities of peace, abundance, love, joy and serenity in our lives. When we think highly of ourselves and truly feel deserving of these things that is when they will freely flow into and become our reality. This is what I teach my children as a mother and this is what I project to my husband as his spouse. He is learning too. He learns from me these concepts. Many of which he already knows and just needs to be reminded and assured that he is doing the ‘right’ thing whatever that may be at the time. So, I step into this higher consciousness with the knowing that I am already that which I desire to become. What is that? What does it look like? I will tell you...
I have a family full of love and understanding, peace, and serenity. I have a son that was born with a disability but this was part of our unconscious creation at that time. We know different now. We know that if we see him in the light as an eternal light that heals all and is all things than anything is possible. Thought creates. If I can see Ethan as healed, strong, powerful, and energetic then that is what he becomes. If I can see him peeing and pooping (our kid language we use at home) on his own then those opportunities for that to happen in his existence will arise. If I can see him running down a ramp to get in a row boat or canoe with his father then he will one day do just that. The universe will provide the opportunities for this to happen. Of course, his soul has a say in this reality as well and if Ethan refuses this reality then there is nothing I can do. But it is also my job as his mother to teach him that this is possible. This is the reality that I choose and the reality I wish to become. This is what we can teach our children. Just as engineers create architectural feats of skyscrapers and bridges we can bridge and build our own Heavens on Earth. I see my children loving each other and loving their lives and this is what they are. I see myself as the loving mother who loves her husband and we are all filled with an infinite light that can heal and be present with all things. I am holding hands with my husband, my two sons, my daughter, my mother and father-in-law, my sister-in-law and her family, my brother-in-law and his family, my father, and my brother, and my mother & grandfather (both deceased) and my uncle and his significant other, and whoever else of my family that comes into our circle (Aunts, Uncles, loved ones who have crossed over). We hold hands and send each other light and love. We hold hands with the intent to heal the past, be present, and allow the future to unfold in gratitude. Light heals, light takes away the dark and illuminates your consciousness. It gives us hope and it knows there is always a higher power at hand and that anything, absolutely anything is possible. This is the reality I choose and this is the new reality and new consciousness I return back to Michigan with. For this I am grateful for all of my past and all of my present and I am excited for what the future holds because I know it can only hold peace, love, light and incredible miracles! Stay tuned and return back to hear more.
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