Ethan's Web Part 10

Today, like any other day, I awoke early and went for a morning run. Running helps to clear my thoughts and bring me into the present moment as well as contemplate the future day’s events. Running calms the voice in my head and creates stillness in my body. It may seem contradictory to say that running calms my body. But it does. The synchronistic movement patterns, the cross lateralization of my legs and arms working together, the breathing in and out that you must master, and the perfect balance you must create within in order to maintain a pace suitable for your body that will allow you to run long distances. It becomes a meditative state. On this particular morning I took it easy. My foot has been in the process of healing and I wanted to be sure I did not reinjure myself. Along my journey I began to feel the wind building up and pushing against me as I was trying to press forward. I decided to listen to what I felt I was being told; to slow down and take a moment to rest before turning around to run back home. I had already been running for awhile and I could use a couple of minutes of rest before returning home. The wind urged me to take my rest near a bridge that crosses a creek. I put my hands on the metal rails and saw before me a spider web. Of course I immediately thought of “Ethan’s Web” and how wonderful it was to have this reminder right before my eyes. But then, as I gazed to the left I saw another spider web besides the first one. I was thankful again and thought how wonderful it was to see another web. Just then, I saw another web, and another web, and another web. So I began naming the webs, thinking there can’t be more than 5 webs. Here is Ethan’s web, Jen’s Web, Andy’s Web, Eleanor’s web, Aiden’s web. I tried to put names to all of the webs but the webs kept coming and coming and coming. There were so many webs on this bridge I could not believe my eyes! So many webs that when I tried to count them all I had counted up to 50 spider webs and I was only half way down the bridge. This bridge was over 150 feet long and there was certainly over 100 spider webs gathered in between each rail one right after another and one right on top of another all along this bridge. They were intermeshed and all connected. They were all just seemingly floating there but so connected and so strong. One would not see or notice these webs just walking along the trail. You have to stop and take the time to look and even then you cannot see them all. As the light shines upon different areas of the bridge your awareness is drawn to either more or less spider webs. I’m sure there were more webs than my eyes could see because every time I was standing there counting the webs in front of me I would turn one direction or another and be surprised at all the webs that were there but I could not see until I changed perspective. To me this was a huge connection. It was a huge parallel. I made sure I spent several moments to take it all in and then turned to continue on my run back home. My run was then changed forever. My perspective had been changed forever. I thought of spider webs and how we are all connected and how each one of us is part of our own web. How our lives are full of webs and how when we see ourselves in other lights and other perspectives our whole view of life can completely change. I thought of Ethan and his entire life and how our determination to believe that anything is possible has brought us to where we are today. I thought of all that has been done and how much we have to look forward to and how absolutely lucky we are to be blessed with this opportunity to go to China. I thought of my life and all the events that had brought me to where I am today and how each event was perfectly orchestrated in order to mold and shape me into the person I am. I thought of each one of my kids and how they are all on their own paths creating their own webs and how each of us creates our own webs daily. I thought of as many people as I could and imagined each one owning one of those webs that I saw on the bridge and how beautifully symbolic webs can be. Just like the webs on the bridge that are all connected we are all connected as well. And the funny thing about those webs is that we can’t see all the connections right now because we all have our different perspectives but they are all still there and will be revealed to us when time deems it appropriate. Which lead to another thought…that if we are so connected then how important it is to treat each other how we would want to be treated in every moment no matter how tired or exhausted we may be; no matter what our past has done to us; no matter how traumatized we might have been or have become; no matter what our situation may be. For all that really matters is the present moment. Each connection and each relationship we have with another person or even just ourselves affects everyone around us directly or indirectly. How I treat the Earth, my neighbor, my children, my husband, my family, the postman, the waitress, my dog, is a direct relation of how I feel about myself. If I love myself completely and divinely then I can love you completely and divinely.

Ultimately, we all have our own webs of existence and it is up to us what we choose to do with our webs. For my web and Ethan’s web we are choosing to believe that anything is possible and that if we dream it, it will come. I want our webs to be full of joy, compassion, peace, and miracles. I want every person we touch through our webs to feel what it is like to be living heaven right here on Earth; where dreams come true and miracles happen every day. I want every person to know that their web can be exactly the same way if they so choose it to be. I want Ethan’s Web to be a testimony to the world of what is possible and that nothing is impossible. What I want for Ethan and our family I want for you as well. My hope is that you continue to join us and that you begin to create miracles in your own web just like we continue in ours. Thank you.